My heart keeps telling me I was a fool to walk away,
Knowing I was in love.
Here alone I've brought myself more pain than anything you could have done would have caused,
Even if we had only shared this one beautiful summer.
There are so many things I long to say to you,
so much you need to understand somehow.
I've always fallen for the wrong men;
men who would leave me--still very much in love--
And never look back, not caring how much I suffered.
I felt so good when I was with you, but my old fears never let me fully relax.
Now that I am "safe"--and lonely--I know I was wrong.
I would give almost anything to be with you again,
taking the risk of giving you my love.
© 1983 TDD