Friday, December 31, 2010

With You/Without You

With you I was whole, my life was complete.
I was ready to share all your pain and joy.
Without you, I am empty--there's a hole
In my heart where your love used to be.

With you, I was a woman of strength and power
Who finally knew just what she wanted from life.
Without you, I'm that lost little girl, frightened and alone,
Who struggles to find a reason to go on every day.

With you, I believed in undying love again
And in dreams that could come true at last.
Without you, my heart is shattered beyond repair
And dreams have turned to nightmares and sorrow.
© 2010 TDK



Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Wish Upon A Star

Did you ever wish upon a shooting star
To be with the one who's now so far
And did you ever cry for someone who
You once thought loved and adored only you?

Does your mind ever wander in the night,
Thinking about someone who's out of sight?
Do you look to the heavens for just a clue
That I'm out there somewhere, still thinking of you?
© 2010 TDK

Monday, December 20, 2010

Happy (?) Anniversary

Even though you're not here
And may never be again,
I haven't forgotten what day it is
Or what it used to mean to US.
Thirteen months ago today
We admitted to feeling "something"
With no idea where that would lead,
Yet it wasn't long before we both
Promised "forever and beyond"--
And even though you've changed your mind,
I never will.
© 2010 TDK



Trapped

I wrote this one on 12/03/10 and posted it, but later deleted it. Think it needs to be here, though.

The iron bars slam closed
And she knows she's lost her last chance...
Escape will never come.

It was almost in her grasp,
Or so she thought,
But it was nothing but illusion.

Now she'll smile and go through the motions
Living "the perfect life"
Till she finds the way to make her final exit.
© 2010 TDK

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Walls

Looking through my poetry notebook, and realized I never posted this one, which is very apropos right now, even though it was written January 12, 1983.

WALLS
In younger days she trusted everyone--
Her little world was perfect, and no one could hurt her.
Life was full of sunshine and laughter, and she grew up expecting it to always be that way.
Then one day her perfect world, and her family, fell apart,
Chipping away at her trust bit by bit, day by day.
Just when she had begun to trust again, believing in a man,
He threw her young heart back in her face
As though it meant nothing, when he was everything to her.
This time it took years to rebuild her trust,
And with it came a wall to protect her from pain--
No one was ever going to hurt her again!
No one could break through to her heart,
until a man came into her life with such pretty words.
He promised sweetness the rest of their lives,
but as soon as he had taken what he wanted,
he became pushy and arrogant.
Soon she knew they were over and said goodbye--
more pain and anger to rebuild the wall
and more years spent learning to trust once more.
When she decided to take a chance the third time,
she promised herself not to let go until she was sure--
Sure this man was worthy of her trust and love.
How could she have known he'd say and do all the right things
just long enough for her to lose her heart completely,
then turn away and pretend she wasn't there?
Now she'll never trust another man with her heart,
and the wall of resentment is too thick for anyone to break through.
© 1983 TDD


Monday, August 16, 2010

My Other Blog

For anyone who's interested....I've also got a blog where I rant, talk, etc....feel free to check it out!!!

Friday, June 4, 2010

Sometimes

Sometimes I want nothing more than to be alone,
To wallow in the misery and then release it all.
I don't want to talk about it or let you "fix" it,
I just want to feel it, wrap it around me, let it consume me...
Then I can work my way through it and find my way back--
Back to the happiness of US.
© 2010 TDK

Thoughts

Not current thoughts, but thoughts I've had a few too many times in my life. :(

Feeling like a fool again
As I sit here all alone
Tired of words that come too easily
With no actions to back them up
Sick of feeling like an afterthought
Rather than the ONLY thought.
© 2010 TDK

Friday, May 14, 2010

Shattered

Once she was whole--
The perfect creature He intended her to be.
She was loving, trusting, caring
And she opened her life and heart to everyone.

But then there were rules--
Man-made limits stifled who she was meant to be.
Things she couldn't say or do, ways she couldn't behave:
Broken trust and an oft-broken heart.

Now she's shattered--
Little more than a shell of the one she longs to be.
Cynical, hurting, needing, wanting to be whole again,
But closing the world out of her heart and her life.
© 2010 TDK

Monday, April 12, 2010

One Day At A Time

Minute by minute
Hour by hour
One foot in front of the other
Going through the motions of life
As my heart struggles not to break
© TDK 2010

Friday, March 26, 2010

Actions Speak Louder Than Words

He said he'd love her forever and beyond
She wanted to believe it was true

He said he only wanted to be with her
She knew he shared his life with another

He said he wanted to shout his love to the world
She knew she was the only one who ever heard his words

He said he'd give up everything to be with her
She seemed to be the only thing he ever gave up.
© TDK 2010

Picket Fences Become Prison Bars

The young girl dreamed of a life behind picket fences
A husband, two children and a dog to complete what,
In her mind, was the picture perfect existence.

She tried and tried to find it, but there was always something wrong
A husband who acted more like a child
Another who acted more like a controller.

At last she found the picket fence life
A husband, three children and a cat
In a house where she was a pampered wife and mother

Till the day when the picket fence looked more like prison bars
Holding her back from what she dreamed
And who she could be

She longed to break free, to spread her wings
But responsibility and obligation held her down
And tied her to the life she'd already chosen.
© TDK 2010

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Signs

Watching and waiting
Wondering which way to turn
Do I stay on this road
Where it's safe and familiar
Or take the other fork
Toward an uncertain future?
© TDK 2010

Monday, February 8, 2010

Amazing

Amazing moment--
When they found each other
Out of all the people in the world
And shared laughter and fears
Feeling something begin to grow

Amazing hour--
When they each took a risk
Admitting what they felt
And were surprised and excited
To realize the love was mutual

Amazing day--
When they finally came together
To share the love they felt
And discovered so much more
Than either could have imagined

Amazing life--
When they could live each day
Sharing happiness and love
And make so many dreams
Come true for one another
© 2010 TDK

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Love Walked In

Staring out the window,
Excitement and fear mingled in her:
Excited to see him, to be in his arms,
But fearing they had been thwarted yet again.
Then another look, and a familiar face!!!
She ran to the door, threw it open,
Practically dragging him inside.
Clinging to each other for dear life,
Repeating declarations of love,
They knew where they belonged.
© 2010 TDK