Friday, October 28, 2011

Always Been A Quitter

When it comes to love, I've always been a quitter:
Boy meets girl, boy gets too close, girl leaves boy.
That's the pattern I'd followed all my life.
I believed that nothing lasts forever
So I was determined to push each one away
Before they moved on and broke my heart.

But with you, my world turned upside down--
I told you my deepest fears and secrets without pause,
Trusting that you'd accept and understand, and still love me.
How ironic that this time it was you who ran,
Too afraid of what we felt and what it meant.
© 2011 Teresa Kander

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Over Me?

Are you really over me?
Have you forgotten all we shared?
Didn't you know my love was real?
Was it worth it to break my heart for her?

I'll never be over you--
Every day I miss your eyes,
Your smile, your voice, your kiss.

I'll never forget all we shared--
Hugs and kisses, laughter and tears,
Dreams and wishes, hopes and fears.

I always loved you, and I always will--
Everything I said came straight from the heart
And was so much more than JUST the words.

I hope it was all worth it for you--
Because I know, in spite of all the pain,
I'd gladly go back and do it all over again.
© 2011 Teresa Kander

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Haiku Friday

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Hidden from the world
Deep within myself again
Craving solitude
© 2011 Teresa Kander

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Fall

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All those falling leaves
Remind me of our last day
Walking through the park.
© Teresa Kander 2011


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Monday, October 17, 2011

Where I'm From

[Somewhere between poetry and prose. :)]
I am from plastic pools in the yard in the summer, wooden sleds down the hill in winter; from RC and Fresca, Chef Boyardee and Lucky Charms; from Barbie dolls and transistor radios.

I am from the house with the big yard and the deck I helped my father build; from the pool table in the basement and the beautiful white bedroom suite. I am from the soft spring breezes and the colorful autumn leaves; from the majestic Ohio River and the gently rolling hills.I am from the tobacco crops and the fields of green beans; from the potatoes and the tomatoes; from the corn and the cucumbers.

I am from the trees I climbed fearlessly, and the swing set where I practiced my acrobatics; from the "hole" where we played with Matchbox cars and the futures we created in our imaginations.

I am from family reunions every year and Sunday afternoons at Granny's; from cousins who were my best friends and playmates, and scary movie marathons on New Year's Eve. I am from Danners and Johnsons, from Wards and Lamberts.

I am from hard workers who gardened and canned, from frugal people who haggled and bargained shopped. I am from patriots who served their country proudly, from moral, ethical people who held to their standards in the face of every temptation.

I am from Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny, from the Tooth Fairy and the bogey man. I am from trick or treating for hours, and getting popcorn balls, apples, and even apple cider and donuts from the neighbors. I am from bedtime stories and weekly trips to the library, from valuing education and all types of learning.

I am from church every Sunday, whether you wanted to go or not, from Vacation Bible School and children's choir. I am from youth group and play practice, from confirmation and church camp, from doubt to faith and back again.

I am from Gallipolis, Ohio, but I'm also from Germany, England, Ireland and Scotland. I am from George Washington's brother, and from Queen Elizabeth I's aunt. I am from meatloaf and mashed potatoes, from apple butter and from bread and butter pickles. I am from country gravy and biscuits, from sweet tea that's nearly syrup.

I am from the River Recreation Festival and the Gallia County Fair. I am from the home of Bob Evans and O.O. McIntire. I am from the town of the French Five Hundred, where Lafayette once stayed at the Our House Tavern.. I am from watching the Delta Queen move peacefully down the river, from barges heaped with coal.

I am from two people who married just two months after their first meeting. I am from hard-working country folks who married as teens. I am from equally hard-working "city" folk who married in their early twenties.

I am from pictures in a photo album, from black and white and from color. I am from Christmases and birthdays, from graduations and vacations. I am from putting on my new dress just to have my picture taken on the front porch. I am from slumber parties and birthday cakes, from football games and band contests.

I am from six years as an only child, and from being a big sister to my younger brother. I am from a happy family of four, and from a "broken home." I am from stepparents and stepsiblings, and ever changing family relationships.

I am from failed marriages and finding true love, from a son, two daughters and a young grandson. I am from teaching and writing, from trying to figure out just who I am.

I am from everything that has ever existed.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Love's Not Enough

On the outside I can smile and say it wasn't meant to be
But inside I want to turn back time and have you here with me
The odds were stacked against us from the very start
And now we live separate lives with two broken hearts
We fell so fast, so head over heels in love
How could we know that love just wasn't enough?
© Teresa Kander 2011

Friday, September 23, 2011

Lady In Waiting

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She waited for him
To say she was not crazy--
That he felt it too.

She waited for him
To say what she longed to hear--
"Forever, my love."

She waited for him
On that dreary winter day
It all became real.

She waited for him
When it would have been easy
To just walk away

She waited for him
To decide if he wanted
To be in her life

She waited for him
Until he told her goodbye
And left her alone

She still waits for him
Day after day after day
Hoping he'll return.
© Teresa Kander 2011