Always Been A Quitter

When it comes to love, I've always been a quitter:

Boy meets girl, boy gets too close, girl leaves boy.

That's the pattern I'd followed all my life.

I believed that nothing lasts forever

So I was determined to push each one away

Before they moved on and broke my heart.

But with you, my world turned upside down--

I told you my deepest fears and secrets without pause,

Trusting that you'd accept and understand, and still love me.

How ironic that this time it was you who ran,

Too afraid of what we felt and what it meant.

© 2011 Teresa Kander

Over Me?

Are you really over me?
Have you forgotten all we shared?
Didn't you know my love was real?

Was it worth it to break my heart for her?

I'll never be over you--

Every day I miss your eyes,

Your smile, your voice, your kiss.

I'll never forget all we shared--

Hugs and kisses, laughter and tears,

Dreams and wishes, hopes and fears.

I always loved you, and I always will--

Everything I said came straight from the heart

And was so much more than JUST the words.

I hope it was all worth it for you--

Because I know, in spite of all the pain,

I'd gladly go back and do it all over again.

© 2011 Teresa Kander

Broken

I built a wall around my heart

To keep my emotions locked away

But that wall was broken for you.

I made a commitment and a vow

To be true to someone as long as I lived

But that vow was broken for you

I gave you my trust

Daring to believe your every word

But that trust was broken by you

I let you have my heart

Fully and completely, without question

But that heart was broken by you

I dreamed bigger bolder dreams

Of a future that would have you in it

But those dreams were broken by you

I used to have a life that I enjoyed

Because I didn't know what I was missing

But now I am irreparably broken for you.

© Teresa Kander 2011

Love And Loss

Is it really better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all?
Those who have never loved
Will never know the heartbreak and hurt
Of having the one they live for walk out of their life,
Or the torture of trying to win them back
Only to be told to stop acting a fool.
Never knowing love could mean
A lot less pain in your life.
© 1988 TDR

Always

No matter how many times we set each other free,

We come running back to the best love we ever knew--

The love we shared together in better times.

With each new beginning, our passion grows stronger

And our need grows deeper with each kiss and touch.

Yet there is still a constant nagging fear of pain and heartbreak--

A fear we could put behind us if we'd learn to believe in ourselves;

Returning with such regularity proves we'll always be in love.

© 1985 TDD