Haiku Friday

*Haiku Friday is hosted by LouCeel

Hidden from the world

Deep within myself again

Craving solitude

© 2011 Teresa Kander

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Heavy clouds of gathering darkness

Cover the once bright glow of the sun

Warning of impending disaster.

© 1984 TDD

Failure

A failure--

That's what I seem to have become.

So very close to one of my best-loved goals,

I had thought things were going rather well,

until today.

Today people have found fault with all I've done,

Never offering a word of praise for the good things,

And I've begun to wonder if it's worth it after all.

If I have failed so miserably, what is the point in trying to carry on?

Why not just admit my defeat and put an end to all my mistakes in the most definite, lasting way,

Simply by ending the biggest mistake of all--

My very life?

© 1983 TDD

Abyss Of Nothingness

An abyss of nothingness--

Comfort from the pain of the world.

Yet fear of an all too final success keeps

holding me back from another attempt.

I don't want to think or feel or hurt or try to live up to the expectations of those trying to mold my life into something they call normal.

Why should normal mean anything more than doing what I feel is right for me or being what I want to be?

Without that freedom, all that lies ahead is the abyss of nothingness.

© 1983 TDD

Silent Screams

Screaming out in silence as this way of life--

Just above existing--

Begins closing in around me.

Conforming to someone else's rules,

doing nothing more than I am told,

Eats away at my soul and I struggle to break free.

Feelings I can't express, people I shouldn't see--

Who's in charge here, anyway?

Isn't this my life?

Can't I make mistakes, claim them as my own

and go on from there, picking up the pieces of my dreams?

There must be more to life than silent screams.

© 1982 TDD