Untitled

When you are out of my life,

I'm perfectly capable of surviving alone

And managing even the largest complications.

Then you come back to my side once more

And I feel my independence being drained away--

Once again I'm the helpless little girl of old,

Struggling to please you but afraid I never will.

© 1988 TDR

Untitled

It seems I've confused the actors in the play,

Reacting to you as though you were really him.

The way you spoke to me in that moment--

The look in your eyes--

Sent me back in time to that feeling of captivity;

I remembered how he took control of my life--

And me--so subtly I didn't notice till it was too late,

And I vowed never to let it happen to me again.

In that bried instant I knew I had to hold my ground;

Standing up for my originality and personhood,

I overreacted, leaving you shocked, confused and hurt.

Now I pray God will help me see only the facts of today,

Putting the ghosts of yesterday far behind you and me,

Leaving us a solid, lasting love for all our tomorrows.

© 1984 TDD

Filled With Loneliness

Surrounded by humanity I am still filled with loneliness,

empty of human emotions I long for.

Without you, these feelings are lost.

Each time you leave my sight you take the essence of my life

and leave only the shell of a person

To wander through each day in a semblance of living.

But I am not really living.

I am merely existing, counting every moment until we're together again

And my soul will awaken with impassioned longing for the rest of itself.

What right do you have to steal things of such importance?

Although I want you to be part of my life,

you can not control me or my emotions.

I am the only one with that right.

I will share with you when I so choose,

but do not try to force me into confession.

It may be good for some souls, but not for mine.

© 1982 TDD