Haiku Friday--Memories

*Haiku Friday is hosted by LouCeel

Memories of us

Turn the happiest of days

Into times of tears.

© 2011 Teresa Kander

Two Years

Two years since we agreed to be honest

Two years since we spoke what was on our minds

Two years since you first gave me butterflies

Two years since we promised to be "in it for the long haul"

Two years since you put a smile on my face I thought I'd wear forever

And one year of having nothing but memories of us.

© 2011 Teresa Kander

The Rest Of Her Life

(Written using title prompt)

She thought she'd have his love

The rest of her life

She thought she'd be happy

The rest of her life

Instead---

She's going to be missing him

The rest of her life

She's going to be alone

The rest of her life.

© 2008 TDK

If Only

If only you'd shared your feelings long ago

And if only we weren't both tied to others now,

Tonight could be ending so differently.

If only we were free to say what we feel

And if only we could explore those feelings together,

We might discover something extraspecial.

If only--the saddest words I know.

© 1990 TDR

Rejection

I used to think I could always count on you to be there--

To hold my hand and wipe away my tears when I was feeling down,

To take away my pain and help me see there were better days to come.

Now I need you so much more than I ever thought possible,

But you're keeping me at arm's length, refusing to let me reveal my emotions to you.

When you're so cold and distant, I wonder if your love for me has died.

© 1989 TDR

What To Do

What should I do now--

Now that my best friend

Is slipping slowly

Out of my life?

Never have I felt

So totally alone,

With nowhere to turn

And no one to trust.

Please come back

And cheer me up again.

© 1988 TDR

Untitled

If this is my home, why aren't I comfortable here?

I feel isolated, neglected and forgotten--

There is no one to share my feelings,
No one who will truly understand

Why I often feel the need to cry.

Must I always be so alone?

© 1988 TDR

Let Her Go

I hate to see you look so sad

When I know I can't pick you up.

You miss her so very much

Yet feel she may not wait for you,

And the pain goes even deeper.

If she hurts you so much,

Why can't you just let her go?

© 1988 TDR

Love Isn't Always Enough

We thought we'd share a million years,

But now we're sharing bitter tears.

We thought joy would always fill our hearts,

Never dreaming it would fall apart.

We thought we were meant to have forever,

But too many people don't want us together.

We know we'll always be in love,

But love just isn't quite enough.

© 1984 TDD

Abyss Of Nothingness

An abyss of nothingness--

Comfort from the pain of the world.

Yet fear of an all too final success keeps

holding me back from another attempt.

I don't want to think or feel or hurt or try to live up to the expectations of those trying to mold my life into something they call normal.

Why should normal mean anything more than doing what I feel is right for me or being what I want to be?

Without that freedom, all that lies ahead is the abyss of nothingness.

© 1983 TDD

Silent Screams

Screaming out in silence as this way of life--

Just above existing--

Begins closing in around me.

Conforming to someone else's rules,

doing nothing more than I am told,

Eats away at my soul and I struggle to break free.

Feelings I can't express, people I shouldn't see--

Who's in charge here, anyway?

Isn't this my life?

Can't I make mistakes, claim them as my own

and go on from there, picking up the pieces of my dreams?

There must be more to life than silent screams.

© 1982 TDD